I had a blog in high school.  It never went far.  I think I put four posts on it during my Junior year and then abandoned it altogether. Even in cyberspace I was so scared of putting myself out there that I focused on trivialities that meant nothing to me, and I hated that feeling.  It was a sense of talking about nothing, not accomplishing anything, and feeling even more incomplete when finished. What I should have done was tell the truth. Create an environment to share with all of my friends and family the pain that I was going through as I struggled to come to terms with an eating disorder and recover from it. Of course many of them knew, and being anorexic it's not like I could keep it a secret...but still.  During hard times in our lives it is so easy to flip our humanity switch and build walls that even spider man couldn't successfully scale. But I am done doing that. Through my life experiences thus far I have learned what a great blessing it can be to be open and honest in all areas, even though at times it is frightening and sorrowing.  And I have also experienced how it can uplift and strengthen those around me.  And that's why I wanted to start this blog.

    I am proud to say that since entering treatment at age 17, and experiencing over a year of excruciating physical and emotional pains, I am considered "in recovery" from my eating disorder.  It is often still a daily struggle of temptations, low self esteem, and inner conflicts.  But each time that I win out over my negative thought, feeling, or habit I become the conquer.  Every day, no matter what trials we are facing, we are all capable of becoming...a little bit stronger.